How does someone with a fear of doctors, and a trauma history, see a doctor like a “normal person?” I have tried different PCP’s through the years, and always have a similar experience. I never get through the Physical Examination: I become horribly uncomfortable, they guess my history, give me a PTSD diagnosis, tell me to get more therapy, and never call me back in.
I have had therapists since I was 12, and discussing this with my current therapist only resulted with a recommendation of finding a woman doctor under 25. I don’t know how to find a doctor who might meet that criteria, and at the same time: explain to me what they are going to do to me – before doing it, and not be afraid of me and send me away – never to be contacted again.
I have had health insurance for many years that covers annual visits (and much more), yet I don’t know how to find a doctor that would be willing to do that, at least.
Part of my trauma history, was a dehumanizing multiple doctor examination when I was 11. I understand they needed evidence for the court case. I understand that complicates my ability to not be extremely nervous around doctors. I understand not all doctors would, or should, treat someone like I was then. Most of all, I understand that finding a doctor I could trust, and communicates well, would help me not be so nervous.
All I want is to be a normal healthy person. I am good at forcing myself to do a lot of things, if I know what is going to happen. I have tried to do research on what exactly a Physical Examination consists of, and how to find a doctor who would work with a person like me. I have not had much success.
My questions are:
How does one find a doctor that is not afraid of someone with a trauma history?
Are there resources, information, for someone like me? (From the USA)