Thank you for sharing your personal information with me. However, what you did share is unfortunately not enough for me to determine if you do have schizophrenia or the high fever caused your current mental health problems. It would be hard to know from a short e-mail. The question you asked is very complex. I can tell you that from my studies of schizophrenia, in almost every case, the illness was precipitated by some emotional event; drugs, pregnancy, divorce, and so forth. This indicates that the disease has a strong psychological component. If the disease were purely organic in nature, the disease would surface (if it were going to) no matter what external events were occurring in one’s life.
I do not know if you are suffering from schizophrenia now but it is certainly possible that this event could bring on schizophrenic episodes, or the psychotic symptoms you are describing. In my opinion, I do believe that the life threatening event which occurred as a result of your pregnancy could trigger the symptoms you have experienced since the event and seem to be currently experiencing. I believe, as you do, that it has nothing to do with you “giving your baby away.” From what you wrote, your decision to give your baby up for adoption was well informed and made under perfectly reasonable and rational thinking processes. I must reiterate that it would be impossible for me to know, without interviewing you extensively, if this event did cause your mental health problems-and even then I may still not know conclusively since it is a very complex issue. While I cannot know for sure, I do believe it is likely this event helped to trigger your current mental health problems.
I am sorry that you are suffering with these frightening psychotic symptoms. It must be hell on earth to experience paranoia and hallucinations. Knowing the cause of your current mental health problems, however, is less important than getting good treatment. I would encourage you to find good help, a good psychiatrist and to surround yourself with supportive people if possible. Good help, the right medication and a supportive network of people can help to desist or reduce your psychotic symptoms, live a better quality of life and can improve your prognosis. Finding the right antipsychotic medications in particular can help eliminate your psychotic symptoms. I know that antipsychotic medications are not benign but it is the best modern science can offer at this time. I hope this helps to shed some light on your situation. If you have any more questions and want further explanation about my answer to your question, please write again. Take care and please write again to keep me updated on how you are doing.
This article has been updated from the original version, which was originally published here on August 26, 2006.