What comes through your email loud and clear is that you have one of the most important character traits a human being can own: grit. Almost every sentence identifies you as persistent and resilient. No form of success is a straight line. Here is a brief video on some famous failures that show how important it is to honor your capacity to try again and again: https://youtu.be/zLYECIjmnQs. As Muhammad Ali has said: “Inside of a ring or out, ain’t nothing wrong with going down. It’s staying down that’s wrong.”
I wouldn’t pretend to know exactly what you will need to do to feel better — but I know there is something inside of you that will keep pushing for it. Even your email to us is a sign that you may not know how, but you are willing to look for answers. From everything I’ve learned about happiness and success– that is the essential ingredient.