I am 15, and I think I may be sociopathic. A part of me has always thought that something was off about me, so I did some googling and ended up reading articles about sociopaths and the symptoms of being one.
What I read, I really related with. For example, sociopaths have superficial charm, and are manipulative. My friends all say I am super sweet and kind, but I know as a fact it is not genuine.
Also I’m very manipulative, but in a subtle way.
When me and my sister argue, I almost always win, whether I am right or not, and will say what needs to be said to get there. Sometimes the arguments get pretty bad and she will start crying, but it has no effect on me.
I often mentally isolate myself from people. I think I’m superior than everyone. To me, people seem like robots, or just pieces of a game. Sometimes I just get impulsively angry for no reason. I conceal it, obviously. But sometimes I feel like the only way to get rid of that anger is to just hit something, or someone.
I’ve been known to make decisions without thinking first, and I’m very prideful. I hate to say sorry, a few exceptions, however. I’m a realist, if that has anything to do with it.
A couple people have often called me heartless. And in the past year or so I have been questioning whether I actually feel love or not. Like, I know that I should love my sister, my parents, friends, etc, but when I think of those people there are no emotions attached to them. I don’t think I really know what love feels like.
Those are a few examples. But I didn’t relate with every single characteristic stated in some articles, so it makes me think I just have sociopathic tendencies, rather than being an actual sociopath. (From Canada)