I’m very sorry you are struggling. I’m sorry that your family has a mistaken view of the mental health profession. I do understand their concern. I agree that there are kids who are prescribed medication instead of being helped to learn how to cope. That being said, medication is only one small part of what we do. Most people don’t need it. Most are helped with talk therapy alone. You can certainly refuse medication even if it is offered. Perhaps if you told your mom that you aren’t interested in medication, that you just want to talk to someone, she will be more willing to help you find a therapist.
In the meantime, if you do need to talk, you can call the Boys Town Hotline. Don’t be put off by the name. Girls use the service too. Counselors are available 24/7 to talk to teens. It’s free and confidential. You can phone or chat online. Here’s the website: http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/home.aspx.
And — since you have trouble getting out of bed in the morning, you may be suffering from sleep deprivation. If you aren’t getting 7 – 9 hours of sleep every night, that might be part of the problem. Sleep deprivation is often mistaken for depression. Check out this website for the National Sleep Foundation: https://sleepfoundation.org/sleep-topics/teens-and-sleep.
I wish you well.