You said that your treatment providers are in the process of adjusting your medication. You might feel better after the proper medication adjustment.
You mentioned having schizophrenia but question whether that diagnosis is correct. Not feeling real or the idea that you do not exist as a “person,” might be indicative of depersonalization. Depersonalization is a generic term for people who feel they are not real or that they don’t exist. Depersonalization is not a symptom of schizophrenia.
Depersonalization may be indicative of a dissociative disorder. Dissociative disorders are common among people with trauma histories. People with dissociative disorders experience disruptions in memory, consciousness and perception. People with schizophrenia might experience similar problems. Though dissociative and psychotic disorders are distinctly different, there are overlaps in symptom presentation. Those, and other issues, can make diagnosing complex mental health disorders, difficult. Diagnosis is rarely a straightforward process.
I would recommend reporting these symptoms to your prescribing physician. It’s better to tell the truth than to misguide them. You might even show them the letter you wrote to us at Psych Central. Finally, consider documenting how you feel in a journal. Having that information will provide an important level of insight for your treatment providers. Good luck.
Dr. Kristina Randle