It’s fairly common for people to know that something is wrong but to not know what it is. That’s why it’s important to visit a mental health professional. They will know what’s wrong and most importantly, how to fix it.
You mentioned having bulimia. Bulimia is a serious disorder. Eating disorders have the highest mortality rates of all mental illnesses. Your body is being seriously damaged by bulimia. Treatment is imperative.
I’m not familiar with the mental health treatment system in Spain, but if it’s similar to the United States, you would make an appointment with a mental health professional and that begins the assessment process. A psychosocial history would be collected and a diagnosis would be made based upon that information. A treatment plan would also be created. Both counseling and medication would likely be recommended.
Seeking treatment can be difficult when you don’t have family support. For many reasons, some parents are reluctant to admit that their children have emotional problems. Given your age, you probably don’t need your mother’s permission to enter treatment. I would encourage you to pursue treatment as soon as possible. It will help you to feel better. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle