“Crazy” is a problematic term in the context of mental illness. Some people have a fear about being labeled as “crazy” and thus, as a result, avoid seeking help. It might even be keeping you from seeking help.
The World Health Organization reported that depression is the number one cause of disability in the world. According to their organization, 300 million people suffer from depression. Depression proliferates, in part, because many sufferers avoid treatment because of the stigma associated with asking for help. Instead of thinking of yourself as “crazy,” a more accurate description might be that you are suffering with common mental health problems that are amenable to treatment. Every symptom you have described is treatable with both medication and/or counseling.
Your symptoms don’t seem to match any one disorder. They may stem from your untreated anxiety. The fact that you disassociate and have a “friend,” with whom you communicate when distressed, would also suggest a possible history of trauma. Being able to distinguish his thoughts from yours is a positive sign. It shows that you can distinguish reality from non-reality. It’s important to stay grounded in reality.
Your symptoms are significantly interfering with your life. You should be evaluated by a mental health professional in your community. They will assess the problem and develop a plan for treating your symptoms. Ask your primary care physician for a referral or click on the “find help” tab, at the top of this page. Treatment will help you to feel better. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle