From a teen in the Phillipines: I am diagnosed with Adjustment disorder with depressed mood for a year and am still currently taking medications for it. Sometimes I feel that the medications do not work at all and still feel depressed. However, there are also times that I feel like I am getting over it.
The issue is, I feel these in an alternate manner. A couple of weeks ago, I felt my usual feeling of worthlessness, lethargic, empty. I have no interest with things I used to love and feel my mind cannot process anything completely.
But at this moment, I feel as if I can do everything and I feel confident about myself. I feel like my mind is extremely sharp and I suddenly thought of a bunch of ideas and plots for the stories I am writing. I appreciate music so much more than before and I cannot focus on what other people are telling me. I also noticed that my hands cannot stop from fidgeting or doing random things. I also suddenly feel like I have a lot of stories to tell my friends.
I felt the opposite of this just a few weeks ago which weirds me out. There are also instances that I feel happy and motivated today and then feel so off and tired later on. Sometimes, I also get to be optimistic of my works but later on, I would think otherwise. I am also having a really hard time on deciding into things but there are also times that I get surprise of myself for I just decide things so rapidly without thinking it through very well, like my cutting and perming of hair.
I also tend to save money for a greater purpose but would spend it later on with some thing I just recently thought of buying and forgetting my first purpose of having that saved money. I don’t quite know if I am just being overreacting. I am soon going to revisit my psychiatrist to further discuss about this but for now, I just want to know if there is an apparent possibility with my suspicion of my having a bipolar disorder. Thank you very much for taking your time reading my concern!