I think that you might already know what’s wrong. As you wrote, you have been depressed for about five years. In addition, your best friend is moving away. It’s difficult to lose close friends. It makes sense that you are feeling more sad than usual.
Here are some actionable ideas to help resolve this problem. First, speak to your father about your “dwindling” relationship. If he knew how he felt, he might change his behavior. You should also tell him about your depression and how you are upset about losing your best friend. Make him aware of these problems. He may be able to help.
Second, you should also tell your mother about what’s wrong. Ask that she take you to counseling. She could help you find a mental health professional who specializes in treating depression in teenagers. Counseling is one of the best treatments for depression.
Third, consult a doctor about your cystic acne. If possible, choose a dermatologist who specializes in treating this condition. You might find a good dermatologist through Internet research. Ask your parents to help you find a good doctor. If the first one doesn’t help, the second one might. If the second one doesn’t help you, the third one might. Just keep trying. Not all dermatologists are equally good.
Lastly, you could relieve your daily stress by journaling. Writing about strong emotions can provide intense relief. It could help you process difficult emotions and clarify your thinking. I hope these ideas help, if only in some small way. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle