Your letter indicates that you judge yourself harshly. Within the contents of a few short paragraphs you called yourself an exaggerator, a liar and someone who was helpless and childish. You also seem to consider yourself a failure because you can’t solve your own problems.
That type of thinking is consistent with people who are depressed and who harbor unrealistic expectations of themselves. Humans are not born with innate problem-solving knowledge. That type of knowledge is learned. Sometimes it is learned from a good mentor or from our parents or caregivers. For those wanting that knowledge, counseling could help. You are the perfect candidate for counseling.
It’s important to stop being so hard on yourself. That kind of attitude has the potential to prevent you from seeking therapeutic help. It is the same kind of attitude that prevails among many in our culture. Seeking mental health treatment is nothing to be ashamed of. Counseling can be immensely empowering and it can change your life for the better. I would recommend trying cognitive behavioral therapy. It is evidence-based and problem-solving oriented. It targets both thinking and behavior. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle