In my final year of high school, I undertook a course load that was extremely high. This course load, in addition to the requirement of studying for numerous standardized tests / college admissions tests made me quite stressed in the first half of senior year. This eventually developed into a condition similar to depression (though not quite at that magnitude), and I began seeing a psychologist regularly. At the time I got really into the Beatles, and I found that listening to their music was a great coping strategy. Time went on and I gradually grew out of my slump, and actually got to enjoy the latter half of senior year. However, now, whenever I listen to the Beatles, or any other music I listened to near that gloomy time, I am flooded by bad memories and emotions that take a toll on my entire day, sometimes the entire week. I really don’t like this, as the Beatles is my favorite band and I would very much like to listen to them again happily.
However, it’s not only music, but other activities I take part in as well. For example, studying calculus or biology also brings back the same bad memories because I haven’t done those subjects since that time.
I’ve also noticed that all the other music I listened to after this period is making me sad, even if the period in time was a happy one. Is there any reason in particular why this happens? Are there any strategies to overcome the sadness? Could this possibly be a homesick reaction, due to the fact that I am in my freshman year of college?