Your asking for help is encouraging because it shows that you care about what happens to you and perhaps to other people. Anger may be the only emotion that you currently feel, but your letter indicates that you may be capable of experiencing other types of emotions. It’s a hopeful sign.
The fact that you are worried about being punished is also a good thing. It could prevent you from engaging in crimes. You are very correct to worry about going to prison, especially if you are having trouble in controlling your behavior. Prison is far worse than almost anyone would imagine. You do not want to experience, the frightening reality of incarceration.
If you can’t control your urges, then you have no other choice than to seek professional help. As you have noted, not addressing this problem could lead to criminal acts and imprisonment. If you want to avoid this outcome, then you must do whatever is necessary to prevent it from happening. Ask your parents for their assistance or speak to your school guidance counselor about consulting a mental professional. Treatment is the solution to your problem. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle