Thank you for writing. When someone has concerns such as these, it’s important to sort out whether there is a psychological problem, a medical problem, or the normal ups and downs that go with adolescence. It could be any of those or it could be a combination.
Your first stop should be with your doctor. I hope you have a physician who has known you for awhile and who you trust. Make an appointment. Share your letter to give the doctor an overview of your concerns. It could be that you are going through the normal feelings of abnormality that go with the hormone adjustments that are common for someone your age.
If the doctor feels there is a larger problem, ask for a referral to a mental health counselor to talk to. Again, bring your letter. It will help the counselor quickly understand what needs to be discussed.
One or the other professional may make recommendations for treatment. You and your parents can then decide what makes the most sense for you.
I’m very glad you have discovered the theater. The teen years can be very, very stressful. It’s important to pursue an interest that takes you away from the day to day stressors of schools, friends, and relationships. Stick with it. Stick with it both as a performer and as a stage tech. The skills you gain will be helpful to you no matter what you decide to do in life.
As for your friend: It concerns me greatly that some teens seem to like the drama of having something wrong with them. Being normal doesn’t make someone boring or ordinary or not special. What will make someone boring or ordinary is living a boring life. There are plenty of opportunities to be a volunteer in your community, to follow an interest (like theater), to get excited about a particular subject in school or to get involved in a club or sport. A high self-esteem isn’t something people are born with. It’s something you earn by doing things that make a difference to yourself and others.
I wish you well.