Yes, you should seek help. The symptoms you have described are concerning and unusual. You mentioned your belief that people with schizophrenia don’t know they’re ill. That is true in some cases. However, many people with schizophrenia vividly detail their symptoms. They are keenly aware that something is wrong.
Generally speaking, people with schizophrenia who know they are ill have a better prognosis than those who do not. This is likely because their recognition that something is wrong means that they will seek help. The fact that you recognize your symptoms and are asking for help is encouraging. Your next step should be seeking help from a mental health professional.
I cannot determine over the Internet whether or not you have a mental illness but if so, treatment could help tremendously. With treatment, your symptoms can be controlled or possibly eliminated.
Without treatment, you risk your symptoms worsening. I hope that you will seek the advice of a local professional. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle