Your symptoms are unusual and could indicate psychosis but I do not have enough information to provide a diagnosis. It is possible that you have schizophrenia or another mental illness, but you would need to have an in-person evaluation with a mental health professional to determine what may be wrong.
The idea that you would be diagnosed and then forgotten is more fear than reality. That is not how mental health treatment works. Mental health professionals don’t diagnose and then discharge their clients. They first conduct an assessment to identify the problem. Then they develop a comprehensive treatment plan to correct the identified problem. True professionals work with you, to get better, for however long it takes.
Mental health problems are treatable but not if you avoid seeking help. It would be a mistake not to seek help. It could make your symptoms worse. Please consider consulting a mental health professional. It will be worth your time and effort. Both medication and therapy could help you tremendously. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle