You said that you have been diagnosed with anxiety disorders. The voices you described are generally consistent with those disorders and not with a psychotic disorder. People with psychotic disorders hear voices that are not their own. The voices might be your conscious mind trying to calm you when your stress level is high. That is a plausible explanation.
It’s also common for some people with anxiety disorders to believe that they are developing other, more serious ailments. People who are preoccupied with the idea of having a serious illness might have a diagnosable anxiety disorder called, as of the latest edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5), illness anxiety disorder.
The fact that you continue to have symptoms might be attributable to only going to therapy every month and a half. That’s an unusually long time between sessions. You could benefit from more frequent sessions.
Part of why you only go to therapy every six weeks might stem from your not trusting your therapist. You don’t tell her “big things” and therefore, it’s going to be difficult for her to help you. If you were honest with her about everything that is wrong, she could help you more effectively which, in all likelihood, would build trust in the relationship. She can only work with the information that you provide to her. Withholding information about your life hinders her ability to help you and therefore limits your progress. You might have more success in therapy if you were more honest.
The probability of your having schizophrenia, because your mother has it, is only slightly higher than if you did not have a family member with schizophrenia. In addition, you did not say how old your mother is but you did indicate that she developed schizophrenia only three years ago. It seems that she developed it much later in life than the norm. It’s unusual to develop schizophrenia over the age of 40. It does happen, but it’s unusual.
I would encourage you to report your concerns to your therapist and to increase the frequency of your therapy sessions. It might help to reduce your fears and help you to overcome these problems. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle