Being a teenager is difficult. It’s more difficult than most people realize. Emotionally, it can be a monumental struggle. The good news, is that it won’t last forever and it gets better.
Having said that, your experiences are consistent with people who have depression and anxiety but only an in-person evaluation, with a mental health professional, could determine a diagnosis. You should consult a therapist. That would be the most efficient and most meaningful approach to solving this problem.
You said that your parents will think that you are “insane” if you were to ask for professional help but that might not be true. It might be the reaction that you fear. Fears are often irrational and yours might be too. Have you ever genuinely asked them to assist you in consulting a mental health professional? If not, that should be your next step.
Try making a sincere plea to them for their assistance in consulting a mental health professional. To demonstrate your seriousness, you might show them the letter you wrote to us at Psych Central. If they still don’t take you seriously, then consider discussing this matter with a school faculty member who would contact your parents for you.
Your problems are highly treatable with therapy. You should try to convince your parents that you want and need treatment. I wish you the best of luck. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle