You stated that you experience emotions differently than other people, but how do you know that you’re right about what other people feel? The only way to compare yourself to other people would be to do well designed research measuring their emotional experiences and compare theirs to yours. Even if there were a difference, it would not necessarily mean there is a problem. If your emotional state negatively impacts your life and causes distress to you or to other people, then it’s a problem.
On one hand, it’s normal for people — especially teenagers — to have many relationships. That is the nature of dating. Those relationships tend to be (though not in every case) shallow and short-lived.
On the other hand, the reasons you gave for how and why your relationships end, may indicate a problem. It seems as though it is possible that you are easily bored, take people for granted and have unreasonable expectations about relationships. If that is true, it could cause future relationship problems. It’s good to be aware of potential problems and to get help for them, if necessary.
I agree with your assessment of psychopathy. You didn’t describe the emotional life of a psychopath. Psychopaths have feelings but they tend to be self-centered people who are unconcerned with hurting others. In fact, they have no problem hurting people if it advances their personal goals and feel no guilt. It is one of the reasons why they are so dangerous.
You describe an ability to shut down your emotions. I would need more information about how it happens and under what circumstances, to know fully what you mean but it could be an example of your trying to avoid painful emotions. Avoidance is a bad emotional habit. None of us can go through life without experiencing painful emotions; suffering, to one degree or another, is a part of everyone’s life. The goal for everyone should be making the best choices and using logic and truth as guides to help minimize psychological pains. These are skills you can acquire in counseling.
I would need more information about the nature of your emotions to determine if a disorder is present. Not having much information limits my ability to fully answer your question. I would recommend consulting a therapist, in-person, to discuss your concerns. He or she can gather more information and determine whether treatment is necessary. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle