Paranoia is one possibility. You might also be experiencing delusions and hallucinations. These symptoms are associated with psychotic disorders.
Alternatively, your symptoms might be the result of your getting so little sleep. Not getting enough sleep can cause mood instability, emotional hypersensitivity and in extreme cases, psychotic-like experiences. Studies show that our mental faculties are not as sharp and are potentially faulty, when experiencing the loss of sleep.
It’s difficult to know what’s wrong based on only a small amount of information. It’s important that you undergo an in-person evaluation, by a mental health professional, and to be truthful. Your therapist probably couldn’t help you because you were not honest with him, by your own admission. He could not help you, nor can any therapist help you, if you withhold the truth.
Treatments exist for all the problems you have described but you must be honest with your treating professionals about your symptoms. Otherwise, your symptoms will worsen and significantly diminish the quality of your life. All of your distressing symptoms can go away with the help of a professional. No professional would ever think badly of you when you tell the truth. These professionals have spent many years in school getting an education because they want to help people with problems just like yours.
Seek emergency assistance if you feel as though you might harm yourself or someone else. Emergency help can protect you from doing something you would later regret. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle