You did not provide details about your past trauma and thus my insight into your question is limited. Generally speaking, no two people respond to trauma in the same manner. It is possible that your attraction is associated with past trauma, but without more information it’s impossible for me to determine.
Your sexual feelings for your school counselor are not unusual. You should not feel embarrassed. In counseling settings, these feelings are referred to as transference. In some types of therapies, transference is expected and utilized to improve the therapeutic relationship or to provide insight into how you relate to people.
In this case, you should discuss these feelings with your therapist (not your school counselor). It’s important to be honest with your therapist about your feelings. It is especially important if you are noticing a trend (i.e. you mentioned having similar feelings towards certain other “off limits” people ). Your therapist can help you to understand your feelings and behavior. Use this opportunity to learn about yourself in a deeper way. That is, after all, the purpose of therapy. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle