You mentioned that you have taken depression medication. You also feel quite moody. Perhaps you need a mood stabilizer instead of medications that explicitly target depression or anxiety symptoms. Discuss your options with your prescribing physician. A mood stabilizer might help. Sometimes, you need to try a variety of medications before finding the right one. Don’t give up.
You described the problems you have had with medication but nothing about psychotherapy. Too many people overlook or dismiss psychotherapy. Thousands of studies have shown that it is effective for depression and related disorders. I would recommend cognitive behavioral therapy.
You can read more about cognitive behavioral therapy on the Internet, but generally it involves developing problem solving skills and identifying and correcting distorted thinking and beliefs. Unlike other therapies, it tends to focus on the present as opposed to the past. You can find a cognitive behavioral therapist by asking your primary care physician for referral or by utilizing the Find Help tab at the top of this page. Psychology Today is another good resource.
Happiness is possible with the right help. You have yet to explore all aspects of mental health treatment. Counseling should be your next step. I wish you well. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle