I’m 16 years old, and my mom has been depressed for at LEAST my lifetime, though I’m sure it has probably been much longer. Since I was little she has talked about suicide, saying she will only be alive until I am 18 – the earliest I can remember her saying that is when I was 7. Sometimes she is happy, goofy, and in the mood to enjoy life, and other times she is sitting on the floor, drunk and crying because her boyfriend is on a trip without her. She and my dad have been divorced since I was 3, and she blames him entirely for the divorce though I’m no longer sure that’s true. We have tried family therapy but I am scared to share my true feelings when she is in the room, and she constantly feels attacked or offended by everything that a therapist says. For example, when I was in individual therapy, she would yell at my therapist if she said that I might want to consider sessions more often, thinking that she was being called a bad parent. I would not consider her a particularly bad parent but I can see where my depression is being influenced by how she acts and what she says. Also, I almost feel guilty because I feel that my brother and I are the only reason that she has not killed herself yet, and she often acts very miserable and hopeless. I truly believe that if my twin and I had not been born that she would have committed suicide already. We do not talk about these things because she often just wants to cry and feels attacked if I bring anything up, and I strive to avoid confrontations with anybody. How can I make things work, at least until I leave for college in a couple of years?