Your assessment of your situation may or may not be correct. You see it from your perspective, but it may not be accurate. This is especially true if the judgments you make about yourself are clouded by social anxiety, insecurity and depression. People with those conditions often misjudge situations by assuming the worst about themselves.
I’m wondering about the relationships you are trying to develop with your coworkers and family members. Generally speaking, relationships between coworkers are professional and fairly shallow. Often, these are convenience friends, people with whom you interact because you happen to work in the same business establishment. Likewise, just because you are related to someone does not mean that you will get along with them. It’s often the case that family members do not get along with each other. Who you should be developing deeper relationships with depends upon how well they treat you, how much you have in common, and many other things.
Counseling is the ideal place to examine these issues. Your therapist can analyze your interpersonal relations and determine if you are doing anything wrong and provide guidance about how to fix it. Ask your primary care physician for a referral to a therapist in your community. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle