You believe that the male friend you met didn’t like your “very skinny body” but you did not offer any good evidence to support your belief. It might be more accurate to say that you fear it to be true, rather than you know it to be true. It is more likely the case that you came to this conclusion because this is how you see yourself and it is something with which you are dissatisfied. You are unhappy with your body so you think other people are too.
The primary problem is your eating disorder. It is difficult to sustain a healthy relationship when you are battling a life-threatening mental health disorder. Eating disorders deprive the body and brain of their basic nutrients which then clouds your thinking and judgment. Until your eating disorder is in remission and/or eliminated, relationships will continue to be a struggle.
It is imperative that you seek help for your eating disorder. That should be your first order of business. Eating disorders have the highest mortality rate of all mental health disorders. It should be the problem you address before any other.
Eating disorders are indicative of a person who is dissatisfied with life. For some, it is a way of dealing with the chaos in their lives but there are better ways. Eating disorders are treatable conditions if you are open to treatment. If you are willing, begin treatment immediately. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle