You getting help cannot and will not destroy your parent’s lives. You not getting help could destroy all of your lives! If you continue on the path you are currently on, you may not make it to see your future potential, either because of taking your own life or putting yourself in a dangerous situation because of substance use. Please get help now!
You have already spoken to your doctor before so that is a good place to start now, just be very honest and let him know that these symptoms are current and they are severe. You can also speak with your school counselor. Either of these folks can then help you talk to your parents.
Despite their own struggles, I’m sure your parents love you and want what is best for you. It sounds like you could benefit from both individual therapy and family therapy. You have all been through a lot and deserve to have some help to make things better — and it can get better. Give yourself the chance to see that life isn’t always this hard and there is always hope.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts