You have noticed a change in mood. Things that used to make you feel better no longer have the same positive effect. Depression is a possibility.
Depression and anxiety often go hand-in-hand. In fact, about half of people diagnosed with depression also have anxiety.
You described feeling an “overwhelming dread” about a missed opportunity to get better. Why do you think that you are to blame for having developed a chronic health issue? Sometimes, people blame themselves for things that are not their fault. It’s also characteristic of people with depression. If I knew more about why you blame yourself for developing health problems, I could determine if you are thinking accurately about your situation.
The bottom line is this: if depression and anxiety are degrading your life, then you should seek help. We all experience sadness and anxiety from time to time ,but it shouldn’t be a daily struggle. If you’ve never tried counseling, you should. Counseling can help to clarify your thinking and help you to feel better. Some people with chronic health conditions also benefit from support groups. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle