You didn’t bother me. You do have issues that concern me. You say that you were “delusional” before. That suggests to me that you were evaluated by a professional. If so, please make an appointment to see your provider again. The thoughts and behaviors you are describing are unusual and worrisome. If you haven’t seen a therapist, it’s time you did.
It may be that you are simply very imaginative. It may be that you are sleep deprived (which can cause some of the symptoms you listed). It’s possible that you are on the autism spectrum (hinted at by some of the other symptoms). Or it may be that you are suffering from a mental illness. I have no way of knowing on the basis of a letter. A qualified mental health professional can tease out what is going on. More to the point, he or she can offer you treatment that will give you relief.
Do take your letter and this response with you to your first appointment. It will help you get started.
I wish you well.