I have come to hate the word “crazy.” It minimizes very real distress. So, no. I don’t think you are “crazy.” I do think you have a genuine problem and that you deserve help.
I can’t make a diagnosis on the basis of so little information. However, what you are reporting may be consistent with rapid cycling bi-polar disorder. Or there may be more (or less) to it than that. For that reason, you need to go see someone who can get to know you and who can take the time to get needed details.
Please stop taking quizzes and go see a mental health professional who can help you get to the bottom of this. Take your letter with you to the first session. You wrote a helpful summary of your feelings. Reading it will help direct a professional’s questions. Together, you will identify options for treatment.
You took an important first step in writing to us here at PsychCentral. Please take care of yourself and take the next step. You can locate a therapist by clicking on the “Find Help” tab on our homepage.
I wish you well.