Perhaps without realizing it, you are asking an unanswerable question: Are people more influenced by nature (i.e. born bad) than they are by nurture (i.e. turn bad)? Nature refers to genetics and hereditary factors that influence our behavior. Nature refers to our environment, including how we are raised, our relationships, our culture, and how those factors influence our behavior.
No one knows whether people are “born bad” or if it’s their environment that makes them behave a particular way. Many people believe it’s a combination of both nature and nurture.
I can’t provide a diagnosis over the Internet, but the examples you have provided about how you treat and feel about people are concerning. You should never intentionally hurt another person. You should always try to be kind to others. Deliberately hurting people is never okay. It signifies a potential problem in how you interact with people.
Any time you notice a potential problem developing, you should seek help. Therefore, it would be wise to consult a mental health professional for an evaluation. A therapist can evaluate your interactions with others and help you to make corrections to your behavior.
So much of our lives revolve around our interactions with others. You have detected potential problems in your interactions with others. If there is a problem, it should be corrected. Therapy can help. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle