Yes, you should seek help. You are fortunate to have access to a therapist and you should be telling her about your concerns. If you withhold information from her, it will be difficult for her to help you. For therapy to be effective, your honesty is paramount.
The reason for your thoughts may not be evident to you, which is why you need to discuss these matters with your therapist. You are not a trained therapist but she is, and she can help. Therapists are trained to deal with these types of problems. She’s not going to judge you; she’s going to help you.
Regarding the death of your uncle’s mother, if you didn’t know her, then your reaction was normal. It would be unusual to have strong emotions about losing someone with whom you had little to no connection.
I hope you will utilize the therapeutic help that has been afforded to you. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle