It takes courage to talk about thoughts that scare us. Fearing that others will judge us, fearing that we may not be in control of our thoughts can limit who we talk to and what we say. It is a very brave thing to do to have taken the first step by reaching out to us at Psych Central.
The internal struggle you are having with these thoughts is the right struggle to have, and it is this internal battle that you will want to talk about. I recommend you make an appointment with your school’s counselor immediately. Tell him or her that you are not feeling safe and you want to talk about the reasons why. Make sure you explain that you want to talk sooner rather than later.
You have taken this first important step to reach out here and we admire you for that. Now take the next step and speak with someone else who cares and will help you manage these thoughts and feelings. You did the right thing by reaching out.