You may be experiencing paranoia or other symptoms that may indicate psychosis. These are not normal symptoms because most people don’t have them. They could indicate that a disorder is present.
What’s most important when dealing with a potential psychotic disorder, is early intervention. Study after study has shown that the earlier psychosis is treated, the better the prognosis. Whenever possible, psychosis should be prevented and that is possible with treatment.
It’s unclear what may have happened during your childhood. If you sustained trauma, perhaps that could explain your experiences. Research suggests that approximately 10% of the population experiences hallucinations throughout the course of their lives. These experiences, on their own, may or may not indicate that a disorder is present. We also know that some people experience things for which there is no easy understanding or explanation.
I would highly recommend consulting a mental health professional. You should have no fear about consulting a professional. They undergo many years of schooling learning about how to treat psychological problems for the sole purpose of helping people overcome these problems. They want to help you.
Your health records are completely, 100% private. This was not always the case but it is the case now, assuming you live in the United States. If you do not, check the laws in the country in which you live.
Gaining a diagnosis will not hinder your chances of work. In fact, it will only help your circumstances. Treatment will allow you to resume your life without the hassle of bothersome symptoms. It will free you to do what you want, to work wherever you want and to have a higher quality of life. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle