It’s common for people your age to begin to question their choices and behavior. Developmentally, it’s quite normal. You have noticed, quite insightfully, that lying is a problem. You are learning that it’s not something you can continue doing without detrimental consequences. This realization is a good thing. It shows positive psychological growth.
You mentioned being confused. You behaved one way all your life and are now realizing that you have to change because it is no longer working. Naturally, confusion would follow. It makes sense that you would feel this way.
You’re worried about psychosis but nothing in your letter would indicate psychosis. Furthermore, you were apparently evaluated by a physician who prescribed Prozac. Prozac is primarily indicated for depression. That means that the physician who evaluated you did not believe you had a psychotic disorder otherwise he or she would’ve prescribed a medication that is indicated for psychosis. Your being psychotic is unlikely.
You are a good candidate for counseling. Counseling could help you learn new behaviors and feel less confused. Medication alone, for many people, is not enough. Comprehensive psychological treatments often involve both counseling and medication. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle