I experience extreme PMS and feel like I am driving my loved ones away. I have been in and out of the doctor for two years, still don’t know. I experience extreme depression, anger, hopelessness and never ending pain during ovulation that lasts until my period comes, up to two weeks later. The 3 doctors I’ve seen have not had any other explanation besides “it’s normal PMS, you have too much stress”. Well, yes it is stress because I do not feel like myself for half of each month and am ruining my relationships with my unexplained depression and lashing anger. Who wouldn’t be stressed? Something obviously isn’t working and I need therapy or medication or both. Hell, maybe I have a vitamin deficiency and it’s a simple fix. But so far, no doctors have been able to tell me what I need. As soon as my period comes, all symptoms go away and I finally feel normal and level headed again. I was afraid to research into my symptoms and didn’t want to self diagnose. That all changed after seeing three doctors and nobody had any advice to help me cope, I was doubting my own sanity.
I am not positive but I have a feeling I am suffering from PMDD, although my recent doctor said I do not have it, as I would have already been diagnosed by now. I’m only 26, I found that a bit ridiculous but hey I’m no doctor. The reason I signed up for this site and am writing this today is because I’m currently in the middle of an extreme episode, and now I can get exactly how I feel out there, instead of waiting until I feel sane to explain how I feel. Because then, I downplay my symptoms.
I woke up today feeling such extreme depression that I had an anxiety attack right there laying in bed. I cried very hard, verbally attacked my loving boyfriend of 3.5 years over TEXT. Now that i’ve no more tears, I feel numb and I hate myself. I’m pushing him away, I’m pushing everyone away. I don’t know what to do next. This isn’t normal PMS. Why do I feel so normal otherwise? When I’m feeling normal, everything is fine. The change is so incredibly extreme. I can’t leave bed, even get up to eat something. I feel so out of control. (age 26, from US)