Thank you for writing in with your question. I’m glad that you are feeling better than you did last year, but sorry that you don’t feel “back to normal.” I’m also glad that you no longer self harm or wish that you would die. It sounds like you have friends and family who care about you and that can go a long way in helping us get through dark times.
From what you are saying here, I do think that you might be experiencing depression and think it’s a great idea to finally get some professional help. You stated that you are in college now so getting help should be quite easy. Most colleges and universities have a student counseling center staffed with fully qualifies therapists, and if they don’t, the health center should at least have a list of referrals that they can give you. Otherwise, you can contact your health insurance and ask for a list of approved therapists, or you can ask your family doctor for a referral.
Transitioning from high school to college can be difficult and now is a great time to get some extra help.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts