It sounds like you have been utilizing defense mechanisms, such as denial and avoidance, in order to deal with uncomfortable feelings and situations. We all do this to a certain extent, but in order to deal with our problems, we must face them directly. Getting the letter about needing to attend summer school is a good example of how our avoidance tactics eventually catch up to us.
As hard as it may seem now, it is time to face your issues and develop more effective strategies. You are almost a legal adult and if you don’t change your ways of coping now, they may only get worse. Your teachers are giving you good advice, it’s just a matter of swallowing your pride and taking it. Accepting some extra help and putting in some extra time would be much less stressful than failing and not being able to graduate with your class. Look at the bigger picture. Think of your future.
I’m also wondering if you have ever been evaluated for attention-deficit disorder (ADHD) or a learning disorder. If not, you may want to consider speaking with your school counselor. If there is an underlying condition that is contributing to your school performance, it would be best to know so that you can get the appropriate help.
You took the first step by writing in, now it’s time to take responsibility for your future and take the next steps.
Dr. Holly Counts