I’m sorry that you are suffering in this way and I’d like to offer you hope. Accepting what happened to you is the first step and it takes a lot of courage. You have already done that so you are well on your way to healing, however, healing from something like this may be more than you can do alone. I know that you have tried therapy and feel that it didn’t help, but I would ask that you try again. Sometimes it is about timing, sometimes it is about finding the right match with a therapist, but therapy can be very helpful in learning how to heal and move on from the past.
I would also suggest that you do some reading on the effects of sexual abuse and consider joining support group. Speaking with others who have gone through similar things can also be very helpful. Please don’t take your pain out on yourself, you have been hurt enough. Commit to finding healthy coping skills so that you can take control of your life again. It will get better.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts