Maybe it’s difficult for you to connect with others but the fact that you care about not caring is a good sign.
If you were completely emotionless and not capable of connecting with others, you probably would not care much about this problem. In fact, you might not even see it as a problem.
If I were your therapist, I would want to know when you first noticed your difficulty connecting. Other questions I would have include: How does your family interact with one another? Would you describe any of them as cold or unfeeling? Do you have a history of drug use? Do you have a history of trauma or abuse?
The latter two questions are particularly important to explore. Some people have reported that after using illicit drugs, their emotions are dulled.
Even certain over-the-counter drugs could suppress emotions. A recent study of acetaminophen, a common over-the counter drug, found that participants in the acetaminophen group had more emotionally muted responses than participants in the placebo group. The results are preliminary but might suggest an association between acetaminophen and blunted emotions.
A similar effect is sometimes found among individuals who sustained trauma or abuse. It changes them, sometimes leaving them emotionally numb.
It would be helpful for you to receive an objective opinion. It is difficult to be objective about ourselves. You describe yourself as non-feeling but a trained professional might not see it that way. There might be certain feelings and or connections you are overlooking.
If you have a trauma history, choose a mental health professional who specializes in posttraumatic stress disorder. Counseling could help you discover when this problem began but more importantly, how to fix it. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle