Yes, I think you should be concerned that you are harming yourself and feeling suicidal, and yes, I do believe that you should seek professional help. I don’t think you should be concerned about a therapist not believing you and accusing you of just seeking attention. If you are open and honest with the therapist about how long this has been a problem, as well as how and when you feel this way, the therapist will be able to help you find alternative ways of coping. You can also explore what might be triggering these feelings and if there is a more serious problem, such as depression or anxiety.
You don’t have to do this alone and you don’t have to go on feeling this way. Please make an appointment to see someone soon.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts