There’s nothing wrong with daydreaming as long as it doesn’t negatively interfere with your life. When it does, that’s cause for concern.
It is also concerning that you want to be mentally ill. It’s abnormal to desire mental illness. It might indicate unhappiness or dissatisfaction with your life.
It also might indicate that you have a strong desire for attention. There are some people who desire attention so much that they falsify physical or psychological symptoms and present themselves to others as ill or injured. The purpose of the deception is to cause others to view them as injured or impaired to gain attention. People who go to those lengths to garner attention might have fictitious disorder.
It’s normal to want attention but it’s not normal to attempt to achieve that attention through deception. It’s a sign of a problem.
I would recommend counseling. Counseling could help you stay focused in reality, know the difference between reality and your imagination and most importantly, develop coping skills to deal with strong emotions. Ask your parents to assist you in seeking counseling. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle