I am sorry that you are experiencing such a difficult time. What you may be describing are some of the social challenges of schizophrenia. In fact, a hallmark characteristic of schizophrenia is impaired social functioning.
Navigating the social world is an inherently difficult task and even more so for people with schizophrenia. Studies consistently show that individuals with schizophrenia underperform in areas of social skills and social problem-solving.
Gerry Hogarty and his colleagues have developed a treatment for the social cognitive deficits associated with schizophrenia and related disorders called cognitive enhancement therapy (CET). The treatment is multidimensional and involves computer-based training for attention, memory and problem solving.
Group therapy is also an essential element of CET. The group therapy sessions focus on teaching cognitive flexibility, how to take the perspective of another person, how to develop better emotional perception, among other things. The essential goal is improved social functioning. Thus far, the results of CET have been quite promising.
You mentioned being part of an early psychosis program. You should inquire about whether or not they offer CET or some version of social skills training. If not, perhaps they could refer you to the appropriate services. I think you would benefit from social skills training and or coaching. I hope this helps. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle