I’m sorry that you are having these difficulties. I think the most important thing to do would be to speak to your doctor and have a complete physical exam. The stroke like symptoms are concerning and having high blood pressure is a risk factor. Additionally, it appears that all of the experiences that you are describing as hallucinations occur during sleep or immediately upon waking. I would share this with your doctor as well because you might be a good candidate for a sleep evaluation. The cause could be psychological but it is always a good idea to rule out medical causes as well.
I’m sorry that you lost a child. It is a devastating thing to go through and I hope that you sought grief counseling (if not, it’s never too late).
Finally, I would suggest that you try to pray or meditate on something positive before going to bed and upon waking. Developing a bedtime ritual can help us clear our mind and feel safe, ultimately leading to better sleep. I hope this problem resolves itself soon.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts