Thank you for writing in. I think the most important thing that I can tell you is to not give up, it will get better. Depression and anxiety are real and can interfere with normal life activities and responsibilities, such as school or work. They can make it difficult to function well, and sometimes it may feel difficult to function at all. But, they are treatable and if you keep trying you will eventually find the right combination of interventions and situations and you will begin to feel better.
I would suggest either giving the therapeutic school another try or going back to your regular school but with a therapeutic plan in place, such as a 504 plan. With this type of plan they can make accommodations such as having you start back part-time and ease into full-time. Eventually you will be able to improve your grades and move on.
You also need friends at this point in your life. As hard as it is, you need to put real effort into this and reach out. Try connecting with old friends, focus on making new friends (especially seeking the ones who are kind and accepting) and try making friends outside of school. Look for activities that interest you and make you feel better about yourself as well, such as volunteering at an animal shelter or taking a yoga class. Bottom line, you have to reengage in life but you can do it in ways that feel safe to you.
Again, it will get better. You will get better.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts