I’m sorry the last few weeks have been so difficult. Yes, you should have him take you to the hospital the next time you have a severe panic attack, but you don’t need to wait for that to happen. I would suggest that you speak to your doctor about the issue and request anti-anxiety medication as well as seek therapy. If you have already been in therapy, it’s time to return.
Not only does it sound like you may have developed Panic Disorder, but given your past of abuse and abandonment, you may have symptoms of Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) also. I have worked with many clients whose symptoms didn’t show up until later in life, ironically, once they felt stable and safe.
You don’t have to live like this. Take the next step and get some help.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts