Having “issues” doesn’t make you “crazy.” It makes you human. Everyone has “issues,” some more than others. What’s most important is developing effective coping skills to deal with life problems. If you don’t learn those skills from your parents or mentors, then a therapist can help.
Go to your father and ask if the two of you can have a serious conversation. Tell him what’s wrong and ask for his help in finding a therapist. If he makes light of the situation, then show him your thigh wounds. Your father might like to joke, but I don’t think he’d laugh at your self-inflicted injuries. That’s one way to show him that you are serious about needing professional help.
Another option is to talk to your school counselor. They are professionally trained human relations specialists. They help students deal with social problems and problems at home, among other things. Tell the school counselor what’s wrong and ask for his or her help. They can refer you to local mental health services.
In the meantime, try to avoid engaging in self-harm. Punishing yourself doesn’t help. It might make you feel better temporarily, but it’s an illusion. Try journaling, exercise, talking to a friend, playing with a pet, volunteering or anything else that takes your mind off your negative mood. Those suggestions are not replacements for professional mental health treatment but they might stabilize your mood until counseling begins. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle