Thanks for writing in with your question. I hope it became clear to you as you wrote these things down that you definitely need to get back into therapy. Things might have gotten better last summer but now it sounds like they are a lot worse. You’re not just dealing with depression but binge eating, self-harm, isolating yourself and dropping an activity that would help you cope with it all, your running.
It doesn’t matter HOW you ask your parents to get you back into therapy, it just matters that you DO. Stop over thinking it and just do it. You could even try the approach of calling your therapist to reschedule yourself then let your parents know that you did. You need support and help to get out of this rut, not only the support of your therapist but you need to let your parents and your friends back in as well. You don’t have to handle things by yourself. Let those who care about you and love you help you when you need it most. And, get back out to run! It doesn’t matter what you look like or whether or not you participate in a formal track program, it just matters that you run again. Exercise is one of the best ways to deal with depression and stress. Don’t let this go when you need it most. I hope things get better for you soon.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts