Thank you for writing in with your concerns. First and foremost, congratulations on the weight loss and fitness success! Losing 200 pounds is an amazing accomplishment and you need to give your body time to catch up. You are young enough that you still have an enormous capacity to heal, especially if you continue to eat well and exercise regularly. I think you are focusing on the wrong things. Instead of looking at your stretch marks and loose skin as defects, you could look at them as evidence of your personal strength and determination. You have truly accomplished something that most people cannot. Have you heard the saying “Don’t miss the forest for the trees?”
We all have flaws and things about our body that we don’t like. We have a choice though to obsess about it and feel less than, or to put our focus on things that we do like about ourselves. How you view yourself is how others will view (treat) you. If you think you are attractive and worth loving, you will draw someone to you who will love you like you deserve. You have nothing to feel embarrassed about. Here’s an article that you might find interesting: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/literally-darling/the-truth-about-stretch-marks_b_3996305.html
I would encourage you to work with a personal trainer who has experience with toning the body after extreme weight loss. I also feel that you could benefit from seeing a therapist who works with Body Dysmorphic Disorders and body image issues. Finally, even though it may be premature and unaffordable for you now, it may put your mind more at ease if you at least consulted with a plastic surgeon so you know what options you may have in the future. You are an amazing young woman who deserves to love yourself fully and completely!
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts