I’m sorry that you have been struggling with anxiety and depression and that your parents have not supported your desire to get professional help. As much as you don’t want to ask for help again for fear of being let down, I think you need to ask repeatedly until they hear you. You admitted that you hide how bad you really feel, so they may not fully realize how miserable you are. The only way for them to understand is for you to be very honest. Have you ever heard the phrase “The squeaky wheel gets the grease”? If you make enough noise, you will eventually be heard.
Another possibility is to speak to your school counselor. Sometimes they can provide some counseling directly, and if not, they can help you get connected to services and may suggest this to your parents on your behalf. Also, most states have laws in place that allow teens to seek counseling on their own, without parental consent, at least for a few sessions. This would allow you get some help quickly and the therapist could then help you communicate its importance to your parents. Keep trying until you get what you need.
Many people just don’t understand that mental health issues are real, and not just a sign of emotional weakness. Hopefully, your parents will come around once they realize that it is a legitimate medical concern that needs treatment. If not, I hope you will find the strength to get help anyway. You are worth it, and you deserve to feel better.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts