Yes, I think you should try again to find a therapist. Depending on just one person for support is never a good thing and it can ultimately strain the relationship. I would suggest that you interview potential therapists, looking for a good fit, so that you will feel more comfortable this time. If that isn’t possible to do in person, at least ask for a preliminary phone consultation, check out therapy profiles and websites or ask for a recommendation from someone you trust, such as your doctor or school counselor. The more comfortable you are with the therapist, the more likely it is that it will be successful. However, keep in mind that it takes time to build trust and rapport and the therapist can only work with the information you give them, so force yourself to be extremely honest.
You might also benefit from medication to help stabilize and lift your mood. It sounds like you are in a fragile place right now so you may need to try lots of different things to help you feel better. This should include a healthy diet and exercise, as well as trying new activities or hobbies. You will never know what kinds of things will make you happy unless you try them. There is an entire world waiting to be explored. I’m very glad that you have connected with your boyfriend, which should prove to you that you CAN connect to others, but now it’s time to broaden your scope.
All the best,
Dr. Holly Counts